Thursday, August 29, 2013

You Might Be A Cancer Patient If...

You might be a cancer patient if...

You make more trips to the doctor than the grocery store every week!

You scold your cat for shedding hair all over the sofa, then realize - its YOUR hair!

Waiting in line an hour for a ride at an amusement park is a breeze compared to the three hours you wait while doing a chemo treatment!

 You've had your blood drawn so many times, you draw a red dot on your favorite arm vein so you can tell the lab tech to just "stick 'er there!"

If I told you I had an appointment with my guy oncologist, you would know I was seeing a male cancer doctor and not an OB/GYN!

 


Monday, August 26, 2013

Dr Appointment Today

Saw Dr. Waples today to solidify the stsrt date for my chemo treatments, which will begin on September 9. Now that the date has been set, I feel pretty good.  Now i've got something to look forward to. What, am I nuts? Who looks forward to chemo?! I don't mean it in the way of anticipating a pleasant event, like a concert or party, but it is something concrete in my treatment, a known in a sea of unknowns, so I can grasp on to it. It is a starting point. "Follow the chemo brick road!"

Yes, I am a little apprehensive, a little nervous, but I am ready. My Monday session will be three hours, then I will be sent home with a meter to cuddle up and sleep with. Then I will come back Tuesday for a two hour session, and Wednesday I come back and they disconnect the meter. I know, I know...your heart is about to explode with excitement! All I know is I had better be bringing plenty of good reading material! After all, what can be more fun than sitting still in a room for that long?

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Patron Saint of Those With Cancer

Below are a couple of prayers to St. Peregrine, patron saint of cancer sufferers. A big thank you to Richard Paladino for bringing me aware of this saint!

Are you suffering from cancer? Or do you know someone who is? These prayers to St. Peregrine can give you hope! This first one is for those afflicted with this deadly disease:

St. Peregrine, whom Holy Mother Church has declared Patron of those suffering from Cancer, I confidently turn to you for help in my present sickness. I beg your kind intercession. Ask God to relieve me of this sickness, if it be his Holy Will. Plead with the Blessed Virgin Mary, the Mother of Sorrows, whom you loved so tenderly and in union with whom you have suffered the pains of Cancer, that she may help me with her powerful prayers and loving consolation.

But if it should be God’s Holy Will that I bear this sickness, obtain for me courage and strength to accept these trails from the loving hand of God with patience and resignation, because he knows what is best for the salvation of my soul. St. Peregrine, be my friend and patron. Help me to imitate you in accepting suffering, and to unite myself with Jesus Crucified and the Mother of Sorrows, as you did. I offer my pains to God with all the love of my heart, for his glory and the salvation of souls, especially my own. Amen.

The second of these prayers to St. Peregrine is for others’ intentions.

O great St. Peregrine, you have been called "The Mighty," "The Wonder-Worker," because of the numerous miracles which you have obtained from God for those who have had recourse to you. For so many years you bore in your own flesh this cancerous disease that destroys the very fiber of our being, and who had recourse to the source of all grace when the power of man could do no more. You were favored with the vision of Jesus coming down from His Cross to heal your affliction. Ask of God and Our Lady, the cure of the sick whom we entrust to you. (Pause here and silently recall the names of the sick for whom you are praying) Aided in this way by your powerful intercession, we shall sing to God, now and for all eternity, a song of gratitude for His great goodness and mercy. Amen.

St. Peregrine is known as the patron saint of cancer patients, AIDS victims and others suffering from serious illnesses. These two prayers give us an intriguing glimpse into his life’s story. Peregrine Laziosi was born in 1260 in Forli, Italy to a wealthy family. Although he was a member of an anti-papal party as a young man, he experienced a profound change of heart, much like St. Paul’s conversion in its intensity.

He and some companions showed up one day to heckle and otherwise abuse St. Philip Benizi, the Prior General of the Servants of Mary, who was preaching in Forli. Peregrine went so far as to strike him in the face! St. Philip, seemingly following our Lord’s advice in scripture (Matt 5:39, Luke6:29), offered his other cheek in response.

This gesture so moved Peregrine that he quickly asked for Philip’s forgiveness and soon thereafter converted to Catholicism, spending much time in prayer at the Chapel of Our Lady at the Cathedral. Mary appeared to him there in a vision asking him to join the Servite Order in Siena. He was received there by St. Philip!

Peregrine spent the rest of his life ministering to the poor and the sick, mainly in his hometown of Forli where he established a new house for the Servites. His dedication to the faith was such that, according to tradition, he would stand constantly instead of sitting down, as a form of penance.

He underwent a severe trial when he developed a cancerous sore on his leg (as we see in depictions of him such as the one above) as well as his feet. Doctors decided upon amputation as treatment.

The night before the operation, Peregrine spent the night in prayer before a crucifix in a hospital chapel. He dreamt at one point there that Christ came down from the cross and healed his leg. When he woke up, he and his doctors, made the joyful discovery that he was completely cured. God had truly performed a miracle on this holy man!

Peregrine himself performed numerous miracles in his life. After his death in 1345, there were countless others, especially in Spain. The Church attributed to him more than 300 cures of cancer and other illnesses from 1694 to 1726 in one city there alone!

It’s no wonder that as we read in the opening of the second of our two prayers to St. Peregrine, many Catholics refer to him as the “mighty” and the “wonder-worker!” He was canonized by Pope Benedict XIII in 1726.

Although there are an increasing number of cancer survivors, there is still no cure for this disease. Prayer is always needed in the fight against cancer, along with research and education, such as that provided by the American Cancer Society

We hope the prayers to St. Peregrine above, along with others here, can bring you comfort and strength from our Lord. He Himself, like St. Peregrine, as we are reminded in these prayers, was no stranger to suffering!



Friday, August 23, 2013

To Start or Not To Start

I have an appointment with my oncologist this Monday, and I can start my chemo treatments then. On the other hand, it will not hurt to put it off two weeks, so I am torn as to whether I should wait. Why, because I am nervous about starting? No, because I want to rock!

Before this chemo business came up, I bought concert tickets to see Iron Maiden in Nashville. UP THE IRONS! I have been waiting 28 years to be able to see them again. Even if I have to be in the back of an ambulance and have them pull up to the stage, I am going to go and have a good time! The only concern is, with the concert being 11 days after my first treatment (if I were to start Monday), will I be too wiped out to really enjoy the headbanging to the fullest. If I put the first treatment off for two weeks, until after the concert, it will be in December before my treatments are done, as opppsed to around Turkey Day if I start them soon. So, to start or not to start, that is the question.

Update: on the side of caution, I have decided to start my chemo in two weeks, after the concert. You"ve got to have priorities, and seeing Iron Maiden is on my bucket list. So, if my cancer comes back someday and I kick the bucket, I will have one less item on the list.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

I Apologize

After reading the last two entries, I must apologize. They are almost completely void of jokes or humor. So, without further ado:

Q:  what do you get when you cross a country music singer with a Star Wars character?

A: GARTH VADER!

Thank you! Now we return you to our regularly scheduled post.

Life Changer

When told you have cancer, or even that you had cancer removed as was my case, it changes your life.  You become a member of a club that unfortunately is all too populous, but suddenly you can relate all too real with someone else who is fighting cancer. Its a wide family.

Even when I didn't think I had cancer, in the back of my mind I guess I was preparing myself for the worst. So, when told the diagnosis, I accepted it as well as could be expected. I had prayed that no matter what, I would leave it in God's hands, and that is still my view. I think of a lyric from one of my favorite Dream Theater songs..."If I die tomorrow, I'd be alright because I believe that after we're gone, the spirit carries on".

About a year ago, i went through about a one month period of severe depression. I have no idea what brought it on, but I would never had made it through without love and support from family and friends. It was by far the worst period of time in my life. And, while the diagnosis of cancer is certainly not a good thing, I believe that God put me through that trial last year to prepare me for any future bad news, because I had gone through Hell for a while and turned out ok again in the end. I honestly believe that this has been the reason I have been able to take things as well as I have so far.

Granted, things have not been all roses. I have had my moments of questions, doubts, and fear. The first time I walked into Clearview Cancer Institute, it was very surreal, and all I could think about was that I was now a cancer patient. But, through daily prayer, support from family and friends have lifted me up. I love you all! 


On With the Story

Convinced that I did not have cancer, I looked forward to getting the surgery done so that I could get back to normal. Not having any kind of surgical procedure since I was 17 months old, I was sort of curious to see what the operating room looked like. After the anesthesia, I had no idea! I was down for the count. Funny, though, when I was wheeled in a month later to get my port-a-cath put in, it came back to me like deja vu. 

They were to remove about one foot of my colon and still leave about four feet. And fortunately it was done by lathroscope, so I only had a few small holes and small cut to deal with.  The surgery was to take about two hours. Well, you know the phrase, "the best laid plans..." They removed the main blockage, but they found another mass on the other side of my colon, and removed my appendix (so I no longer have any reference material in me!). So, the two hour surgery turned into five hours, and they took out three feet of my colon instead of just one. I certainly made Dr. Golzarian work for his money!

I spent four days in the hospital recovering. I must say that my care was first rate by the nurses and staff at Huntsville Hospital. No matter how strong you may think you are, in the hospital you are dependent on others, and I am grateful for all the workers.

The day I went home, though, Dr. Golzarian came in and told me that the blockage they removed was cancerous. So, in the matter of a short period of time, I went from having a blockage removed to cancer patient, just like that.